My journey with smoking started when I was 13 years old. I can still remember sitting at the skating rink with my friends and trying it for the first time. Oh the horror…..one that continued for 33 more years! Through those years I have looked back and so wished I could take that time back, but we all know what is done is done.
I loved to smoke. I simply enjoyed it. But I also realized I was getting older and may need to stop this stupid, ridiculous habit. Not only for myself, but for everyone around me. I really didn’t know how bad I stunk until after I quit.
But I digress….I started/tried vaping about 2 years ago. I was a pack a day smoker for many years at this point. I tried the little vape units…did nothing and was not able to let the cigarette go…..tried a few….about 6 months later or longer I decided to try it again….and this time I got a big vape unit such as This one!
What I found is that what was lacking in those little one’s was the puff I needed….the hit! Once I got that I was good to go. I started vaping that for a few days with 6mg in the juice. I was doing both the cigarette and vape for a few days when one day I took my mom out to do some errands and we were gone all day long and I hadn’t smoked. Because of this huge break from smoking in my day I decided to see how long I could go without a real cigarette.
Well…..I never smoked a cigarette again and that was over a year ago!!
After this I stayed on the 6mg for about 6 months and pretty much decided that I would vape for the rest of my life, but just lower the nicotine mg. So, I went down to 3mg, then 1.5mg and then 0mg…the 0mg was about 2 1/2 months ago. As of now I have not vaped in 2 months! Nothing…ZILCH…NO SMOKING…NO VAPING…..
Now….how I did it was by gong to Yoga Teacher Training and giving up what I must! This is what my “giving up what I must” was for me. That is another story for another blog post, but it made me accountable to my peers in our training group and to my instructors, and most importantly to myself. At this point I was at 0mg of nicotine…it was totally a habit of hand to mouth addiction and totally mental.
Now don’t get me wrong…when I finally gave it all up….I wanted to smell a cigarette so bad…and I did….for about two weeks, this has now passed. Do I want a cig or vape? Sometimes I do…yes, but the thought of doing either scares me….just because I know me…..If I go back to either one it will just be as if I never quit. So…for me…..after smoking 33 years it is better for me to just stay away now. All the shit is out of my system and is now just MENTAL.
I am a big advocate for vaping now, because it truly helped me to quit smoking. I took it slowly and even more slowly then I should have maybe, but it worked and I am now smoke/vape free. I am grateful for that. I still can’t even believe it. It was such a part of my life and controlled so much of my life that I have a hard time believing that I am really free.
I will never judge, or put down anyone who smokes, we all have our journey and this was mine. It took a long long time for me. I can honestly say that I was NOT ready in my brain to do this…it just happened one day at a time….slowly, but surely……but if done right vaping can help you wean off the nicotine!
The whole process took about 2 years from first vaping to being completely free of it all, but it was worth it. I do used toothpicks when I drink my coffee and when I have a drink…..that was actually the hardest part. They help…and are much better then the alternative.
Good luck to anyone who is on this journey….if I can do it anyone can do it!